Tapping into Chakras
Lately Chakras have become a big focus of mine during Reiki sessions. I started noticing them a little more than a year ago. More recently though, they've gotten more attention from me and I began getting clearer messages from them. It is really neat.
Sometimes when I tune into the chakra it doesn't spin evenly, or isn't as bright as I know it can be. When looking at the chakra and noticing how it's irregular I'll often hear why~ I get the message of the emotion tied to what the source of the dysfunction is. "You need to speak your truth" "Speak from the heart to be better understood" "You need to take time out for yourself" "It's okay to let (significant other) in". When I deliver these messages to my client they always seem to resonate and make sense of them. I've worked on my best friend and told her stuff I didn't otherwise "know" about her~ I told her what I got from her chakras and she totally understood and could further explain it. I love the validation I get-- I know that I don't need it, I am the conduit and am there to assist and deliver... but my ego sure does love to know that I am making sense and am being helpful!
Sometimes I get metaphorical images within the chakras. Once a few weeks back I was working on a woman who was hesitant to trust and let in her new boyfriend. She had a bad breakup in a previous relationship and was guarded about letting anyone new in. When I got to her heart I saw a green diary w/ a lock on it. I asked (in my head) "Can it open?" and then I saw it open up, the pages were torn out- held up to the sky where the turned to flames and vanished. Then the diary closed back up again and looked all sparkly and new when it nestled back into her chest. The meanings of these images are so neat to me- especially since I've always had a thing for dream interpretation! The diary image was so clear, let go of the past and wipe the slate clean. Ready for a fresh and bright start! Oh, and in that image I also got the handing over of the key to new boyfriend! That it was okay to let him in!
A while back I worked on a gentleman who was holding a deep resentment against his wife and his heart appeared as a GIANT tough and tight knot. Like a boat's knot- that's how BIG it looked. I was floored! Another time I worked on a skeptic who really doesn't believe in much of anything like this and his crown chakra appeared to be locked shut with multiple locks, padlocks, chains, etc. That too amazed me, especially since the Crown Chakra is what connects you to the divine/your spiritual self. As a matter of fact, when I first got initiated into the world of psychic healing, we did an exercise to open our crown chakras... I actually felt dizzy and like there was a literal opening at the top of my head! I felt wonky and my environment immediately felt different to me! :)
When the chakras are open and balanced it brings one back into an even state of being. Letting go of issues, clarification on what we may be holding back or denying, or are not yet even aware of. I love that people are trusting me with their minds, bodies and souls. It is such a privilege and I do not take it for granted for even one second. I love bringing people into peace, harmony and awareness. I am grateful for my dedicated and loyal clients and look forward to all that is ahead of me.
Sometimes when I tune into the chakra it doesn't spin evenly, or isn't as bright as I know it can be. When looking at the chakra and noticing how it's irregular I'll often hear why~ I get the message of the emotion tied to what the source of the dysfunction is. "You need to speak your truth" "Speak from the heart to be better understood" "You need to take time out for yourself" "It's okay to let (significant other) in". When I deliver these messages to my client they always seem to resonate and make sense of them. I've worked on my best friend and told her stuff I didn't otherwise "know" about her~ I told her what I got from her chakras and she totally understood and could further explain it. I love the validation I get-- I know that I don't need it, I am the conduit and am there to assist and deliver... but my ego sure does love to know that I am making sense and am being helpful!
Sometimes I get metaphorical images within the chakras. Once a few weeks back I was working on a woman who was hesitant to trust and let in her new boyfriend. She had a bad breakup in a previous relationship and was guarded about letting anyone new in. When I got to her heart I saw a green diary w/ a lock on it. I asked (in my head) "Can it open?" and then I saw it open up, the pages were torn out- held up to the sky where the turned to flames and vanished. Then the diary closed back up again and looked all sparkly and new when it nestled back into her chest. The meanings of these images are so neat to me- especially since I've always had a thing for dream interpretation! The diary image was so clear, let go of the past and wipe the slate clean. Ready for a fresh and bright start! Oh, and in that image I also got the handing over of the key to new boyfriend! That it was okay to let him in!
A while back I worked on a gentleman who was holding a deep resentment against his wife and his heart appeared as a GIANT tough and tight knot. Like a boat's knot- that's how BIG it looked. I was floored! Another time I worked on a skeptic who really doesn't believe in much of anything like this and his crown chakra appeared to be locked shut with multiple locks, padlocks, chains, etc. That too amazed me, especially since the Crown Chakra is what connects you to the divine/your spiritual self. As a matter of fact, when I first got initiated into the world of psychic healing, we did an exercise to open our crown chakras... I actually felt dizzy and like there was a literal opening at the top of my head! I felt wonky and my environment immediately felt different to me! :)
When the chakras are open and balanced it brings one back into an even state of being. Letting go of issues, clarification on what we may be holding back or denying, or are not yet even aware of. I love that people are trusting me with their minds, bodies and souls. It is such a privilege and I do not take it for granted for even one second. I love bringing people into peace, harmony and awareness. I am grateful for my dedicated and loyal clients and look forward to all that is ahead of me.
My Guides Make Their Presence Known
Back in the fall, I had several different confirmations from my Spirit Guides of their presence. When the kids began school again I got into the habit of waking early, meditating, and then going off to practice yoga or run @ the gym by 6am. This deliberate habit of connecting in with meditation really brought my Spirit Guides near. When practicing Reiki their presence is felt as well, but the meditations were special because it really was just me and them. I've come to know them as my posse! Over time it just became regular to expect to "see" and feel them while in that meditative or open state.
My main two guys (Spiritual Guides/helpers) are Padre Pio and Father Mychal Judge, but there's a whole crew that I can tap into~ all holy people who are Saints or will soon become Saints. During the early morning meditations I began seeing a new guy to the crew. He looked like a Buddhist Monk, although I didn't know his name. In a short amount of time, probably within the span of one or two weeks all my "peeps" seemed to need to make their existence more real to me by showing up in my physical world in various ways.
I can't remember it in detail now that it's a few months later, but I think it was the first incidence when I was flipping through a Reiki magazine that I hadn't gone through in a while. It was so crazy, b/c I turned a page and BOOM. Padre Pio's pic was the ENTIRE page for an article about working w/ Spirit helpers. It stopped me in my tracks. It was like "oh, Hello!" :)
The next time, a few days later we were at a Fire Prevention thing with the local firehouse. While milling around in the big gathering space I looked up and ~ again ~ BOOM. Father Mychal Judge smiling at me from 9/11 poster on the wall. I was floored!
The following weekend Greg and I were in NYC for our anniversary. We stopped at a museum that was exhibiting Himalayan art from early Buddhism time period. While there, I ended up in front of a statue that I soon realized was the new Spirit guide who had just been shown to me! He didn't have a name, but according to his posture and description he was a Master at Meditation! I thought how appropriate that THIS guy is a new Spirit Guide of mine with my now regular practice of meditation! It was awesome and amazing.
These three experiences were such validation for me that yes, in fact I am connecting with these Spirit Guides. It was their way of winking at me and confirming that yes, this is real. :)
My main two guys (Spiritual Guides/helpers) are Padre Pio and Father Mychal Judge, but there's a whole crew that I can tap into~ all holy people who are Saints or will soon become Saints. During the early morning meditations I began seeing a new guy to the crew. He looked like a Buddhist Monk, although I didn't know his name. In a short amount of time, probably within the span of one or two weeks all my "peeps" seemed to need to make their existence more real to me by showing up in my physical world in various ways.
I can't remember it in detail now that it's a few months later, but I think it was the first incidence when I was flipping through a Reiki magazine that I hadn't gone through in a while. It was so crazy, b/c I turned a page and BOOM. Padre Pio's pic was the ENTIRE page for an article about working w/ Spirit helpers. It stopped me in my tracks. It was like "oh, Hello!" :)
The next time, a few days later we were at a Fire Prevention thing with the local firehouse. While milling around in the big gathering space I looked up and ~ again ~ BOOM. Father Mychal Judge smiling at me from 9/11 poster on the wall. I was floored!
The following weekend Greg and I were in NYC for our anniversary. We stopped at a museum that was exhibiting Himalayan art from early Buddhism time period. While there, I ended up in front of a statue that I soon realized was the new Spirit guide who had just been shown to me! He didn't have a name, but according to his posture and description he was a Master at Meditation! I thought how appropriate that THIS guy is a new Spirit Guide of mine with my now regular practice of meditation! It was awesome and amazing.
These three experiences were such validation for me that yes, in fact I am connecting with these Spirit Guides. It was their way of winking at me and confirming that yes, this is real. :)
Some of what I've Seen
Over the last few months I've seen lots of cool things when working on my various clients. While tuning into a higher frequency with Reiki, or even just with a deep state of relaxation while performing massage (and tuning out the monkey mind chatter) I am able to drop the veil between me and the Spirit world. Things open up to me. I see images of people, Saints, Angels and even animal totems. While in this state I can also "hear" (clairaudiently) messages for my clients as well. More recently Auras and Chakras have come through and how they appear and what I hear about them helps guide me to what needs to be balanced in the body and even perhaps what emotions need to be released or addressed for optimal health and function.
I have a posse of Saints & Angels that assist in my healings, I've come to know them and am always grateful when they show up for a session. :) They've been coming around for so long now I actually forget when they first appeared. However, in the past few months I have seen Saints (or holy people up for canonization) that I don't otherwise know and when I research what I "saw" I find exact matches. For instance, I saw a religious dude from like the 15th century w/ a big blue hat. That's all I knew; I saw the hat and it felt like the 15th century. So I Googled a few words (which key combo it was I can't remember! But it was specific only to that one result of many that I tried). Eventually I found him! Thank goodness for Google Images! He was a Jesuit (the 2nd Jesuit to appear for my client in a month!) and his story was meaningful for her.
In the past year I've also had a few past life exercises/regressions/memories. One was done through Brian Weiss's CD and another time I had a friend/mentor guide it. Occasionally I'll dream of past lives, or there will be moments when I kind of get a flash of a memory while in meditation or even in a wakeful state. I go into time periods that I don't otherwise "know".... You get a feel for the time period, you just have a knowing (claircognizance) of when you are. During this experience you can look at your feet, hands and even a mirror to connect w/ the body that you are visiting. After some experiences I have Googled whatever it was (once it was 1920s women's boots, another time little girl fashion of 1860s) and I find what I saw in my regression! It amazes me. It's so cool. :D
When my mom got pneumonia in November this past year I visited her at the rehab/recovery place. She really appreciates it when I work on her, whatever modality it is that I choose. At this particular occasion I decided while I was doing an Energy Session on her I'd attempt to "look" at her chakras. In the past I had dabbled with that- believing in what I got but it wasn't a "thing" yet for me. Well, this time blew my mind. I had never seen chakras appear this way. My mother is disabled and in a wheelchair. When I got home I researched the various chakras and what they mean when they appear this way and that. They all reflected different aspects of her disablities and the emotions that are intertwined with such limitation. I was intrigued. Again my mother is a big teacher for me! As hard as her disease has been on her and all of us, it has taught me SO much in the world of healing and I'm forever grateful. After that I began to really focus at and look at chakras with a lot of my clients and my one regular client and close friend, Kate in particular. With her they were consistently the same size, etc session after session. She typically had one really big and bright one and one kind of small and dull. In April we went to a Mind Body Spirit Expo and they had Aura and Chakra photography available. She got her picture done and it showed the chakras exactly how they always appear to me!! Talk about validation!! I was floored! :)
All of these experiences have been very validating and affirming for me. There are many many more now and it never ceases to excite and amaze me! I am sure I'll never get bored or stop being amazed by it all. :) Nothing feels better when you trust your intuition and it rings true and is meaningful for the person you are working with. I feel so fortunate to be practicing this work! I am fulfilling my life's purpose and it feels great.
I have a posse of Saints & Angels that assist in my healings, I've come to know them and am always grateful when they show up for a session. :) They've been coming around for so long now I actually forget when they first appeared. However, in the past few months I have seen Saints (or holy people up for canonization) that I don't otherwise know and when I research what I "saw" I find exact matches. For instance, I saw a religious dude from like the 15th century w/ a big blue hat. That's all I knew; I saw the hat and it felt like the 15th century. So I Googled a few words (which key combo it was I can't remember! But it was specific only to that one result of many that I tried). Eventually I found him! Thank goodness for Google Images! He was a Jesuit (the 2nd Jesuit to appear for my client in a month!) and his story was meaningful for her.
In the past year I've also had a few past life exercises/regressions/memories. One was done through Brian Weiss's CD and another time I had a friend/mentor guide it. Occasionally I'll dream of past lives, or there will be moments when I kind of get a flash of a memory while in meditation or even in a wakeful state. I go into time periods that I don't otherwise "know".... You get a feel for the time period, you just have a knowing (claircognizance) of when you are. During this experience you can look at your feet, hands and even a mirror to connect w/ the body that you are visiting. After some experiences I have Googled whatever it was (once it was 1920s women's boots, another time little girl fashion of 1860s) and I find what I saw in my regression! It amazes me. It's so cool. :D
When my mom got pneumonia in November this past year I visited her at the rehab/recovery place. She really appreciates it when I work on her, whatever modality it is that I choose. At this particular occasion I decided while I was doing an Energy Session on her I'd attempt to "look" at her chakras. In the past I had dabbled with that- believing in what I got but it wasn't a "thing" yet for me. Well, this time blew my mind. I had never seen chakras appear this way. My mother is disabled and in a wheelchair. When I got home I researched the various chakras and what they mean when they appear this way and that. They all reflected different aspects of her disablities and the emotions that are intertwined with such limitation. I was intrigued. Again my mother is a big teacher for me! As hard as her disease has been on her and all of us, it has taught me SO much in the world of healing and I'm forever grateful. After that I began to really focus at and look at chakras with a lot of my clients and my one regular client and close friend, Kate in particular. With her they were consistently the same size, etc session after session. She typically had one really big and bright one and one kind of small and dull. In April we went to a Mind Body Spirit Expo and they had Aura and Chakra photography available. She got her picture done and it showed the chakras exactly how they always appear to me!! Talk about validation!! I was floored! :)
All of these experiences have been very validating and affirming for me. There are many many more now and it never ceases to excite and amaze me! I am sure I'll never get bored or stop being amazed by it all. :) Nothing feels better when you trust your intuition and it rings true and is meaningful for the person you are working with. I feel so fortunate to be practicing this work! I am fulfilling my life's purpose and it feels great.
Whoa.
So it's been nearly A YEAR since I wrote last! Wowee. But it's funny b/c I just reread my last entry-- I was right. I needed time and the opportunity to grow this gift, TRUST in it... and eventually that time has come. That time is now!! :)
Since last May I've had many validating experiences with clients and it feels so good. I've also read some good books and follow some neat blogs. I thoroughly enjoyed some of Wayne Dyer's works; most especially "Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life" which I listened to during my dogwalks in the winter. It is about the Tao and Lao Tzu; author of the Tao. During this time, in the quiet moments of my morning showers I began "seeing" an image in the rain textured glass shower wall of what I likened to a skinny Santa Claus; I thought maybe a Spirit Guide or someone else was presenting itself to me. I didn't know. The face wasn't familiar to me. Triggered by my interest in Wayne Dyer's book "Change Your Thoughts...", a few weeks later I ended up getting a different book on the Tao. After reading a few pages of the intro, I opened to a page and saw that dude from the shower's face! It was Lao Tzu! I was like "Holy Sh*t!" I was truly amazed that I had seen him before I knew what he looked like!
Some of the learning and growing of the past year included going out of my comfort zone. In December I was guided to begin a Spiritual Discussion Group. My need to connect with others locally who "get it" and understand Spirituality (and all that encompasses) with the same passion as I do was so strong that I decided I needed to create that safe haven for such candid discussions. Talk about stepping out of my comfort zone~ I really was kind of scared and uneasy about putting myself out there so publicly! But I knew I wanted to get the ball rolling. It was something I'd been thinking about for a while. Once I decided to move on it the opportunity practically fell in my lap! I almost couldn't believe how easily it all came together! I am continually grateful for all the supportive and excited people who share this passion with me! It's all unfolding in perfect divine timing and I'm SO grateful. :) :)
So I look forward to more posts ... there's a lot of exciting stuff happening to me in the psychic/intuitive healing world. I am definitely less apprehensive than I used to be, I know I'm not crazy and that what I'm seeing and connecting for people is real! I'm not afraid to talk about my gift with others as I was before! That alone is exciting. :) I've come a long way... and there's so much more to aspire to, too! :D Yay! :)
Stumped
I've been kind of stumped about what to write these past few weeks. I've started a few posts and never finished them. I can write about my family, my husband, my friends... my practice of Medium work... but I haven't been able to get anywhere. So I'm gonna try now.
I have had some opportunities to practice the Medium work. It's super neat and affirming when the client validates what I'm seeing in my mind's eye (a vision of skydiving, something my client who was widowed early on said she and her then husband always said they wanted to do together - since his passing she said she's put it on her "bucket list" kind of in honor of him and their relationship together; a great aunt who loved to sew and who is currently looking after her great-niece's house concerns in addition to describing her niece's favorite toy as a child; a father who regrets what he did to his daughter and seeking forgiveness as well as expressing appreciation). I am learning how to interact with the visiting Spirit, to get a message for my client, to ask specific questions and trust what I get. Some of these Spirits need to make amends with the living. Physical death doesn't resolve issues and that is a key role a Medium can play in these relationships. Kinda heavy stuff, initially I was so excited that I was "getting" people (Spirits), only to later realize "oh shit- not everyone is like 'Oh! Great to hear from them!' " They're not all happy reunions! Yikes! It just makes this work even more valuable for people who are carrying a burden of guilt or resentment with someone who has passed (or for those that have crossed over to express their new understanding of a situation that caused pain during their lifetime). I only wish I could have a new client every day for several weeks because I know that'll strengthen this ability of mine. I have had a sporadic few but soon hope to have a steady stream.
Even though to do these things feels like such a gift, I am also realizing that it takes time and effort to develop them further. Not necessarily "work", but effort and deliberate action. I think I'm kind of stalling it for some reason. Don't want to make the time... maybe I'm afraid of something? Something blocking me, some type of fear perhaps. I can't really put my finger on it, I just know that I haven't been making the time to practice practice practice. Maybe that's why (I know that's why) I haven't been writing on here as much. I was on a high, a charge... it's fizzled a little. "Connecting" in w/ Spirits can be tiring, it takes a TON of trust in self, you put yourself out there and you have to believe in what you get, and believe in yourself. Once you do all that and deliver the message and have it actually MAKE SENSE to who you're talking to it is super fulfilling. That sky diving message seemed so bizarre and out there... but the Spirit was very persistent in flashing this image across my mind - full on sky diving, goggles and all, free falling. I had to just blurt it out (after trying to ignore such an odd image!), you can't edit this stuff or you can miss a VERY important connection for the person you are reading. When she responded so normally to what I told her I almost was like "REALLY???" because I think I couldn't believe it myself!
It takes time, patience, practice and most of all TRUST. I need to muster it up because it really can be so rewarding. Having two kids, a husband and 2 cats and a 13 week old puppy leaves very little free time at the end of the day. Sometimes I just want to veg. Other times I just want to read the next awesome, inspiring book on my list (currently that would be "Home with God" by Neale Donald Walsch) ... laziness is a weakness of mine. I'd almost rather do nothing when given the opportunity (hence this instead of the sink full of dishes right now). I need to make the time in order to grow or I'll be stagnant! Aaaaahh! Oh well. It's all happening in time as it should, slowly but surely I'm chugging along, but I really look forward to having it even more together in the future!
I have had some opportunities to practice the Medium work. It's super neat and affirming when the client validates what I'm seeing in my mind's eye (a vision of skydiving, something my client who was widowed early on said she and her then husband always said they wanted to do together - since his passing she said she's put it on her "bucket list" kind of in honor of him and their relationship together; a great aunt who loved to sew and who is currently looking after her great-niece's house concerns in addition to describing her niece's favorite toy as a child; a father who regrets what he did to his daughter and seeking forgiveness as well as expressing appreciation). I am learning how to interact with the visiting Spirit, to get a message for my client, to ask specific questions and trust what I get. Some of these Spirits need to make amends with the living. Physical death doesn't resolve issues and that is a key role a Medium can play in these relationships. Kinda heavy stuff, initially I was so excited that I was "getting" people (Spirits), only to later realize "oh shit- not everyone is like 'Oh! Great to hear from them!' " They're not all happy reunions! Yikes! It just makes this work even more valuable for people who are carrying a burden of guilt or resentment with someone who has passed (or for those that have crossed over to express their new understanding of a situation that caused pain during their lifetime). I only wish I could have a new client every day for several weeks because I know that'll strengthen this ability of mine. I have had a sporadic few but soon hope to have a steady stream.
Even though to do these things feels like such a gift, I am also realizing that it takes time and effort to develop them further. Not necessarily "work", but effort and deliberate action. I think I'm kind of stalling it for some reason. Don't want to make the time... maybe I'm afraid of something? Something blocking me, some type of fear perhaps. I can't really put my finger on it, I just know that I haven't been making the time to practice practice practice. Maybe that's why (I know that's why) I haven't been writing on here as much. I was on a high, a charge... it's fizzled a little. "Connecting" in w/ Spirits can be tiring, it takes a TON of trust in self, you put yourself out there and you have to believe in what you get, and believe in yourself. Once you do all that and deliver the message and have it actually MAKE SENSE to who you're talking to it is super fulfilling. That sky diving message seemed so bizarre and out there... but the Spirit was very persistent in flashing this image across my mind - full on sky diving, goggles and all, free falling. I had to just blurt it out (after trying to ignore such an odd image!), you can't edit this stuff or you can miss a VERY important connection for the person you are reading. When she responded so normally to what I told her I almost was like "REALLY???" because I think I couldn't believe it myself!
It takes time, patience, practice and most of all TRUST. I need to muster it up because it really can be so rewarding. Having two kids, a husband and 2 cats and a 13 week old puppy leaves very little free time at the end of the day. Sometimes I just want to veg. Other times I just want to read the next awesome, inspiring book on my list (currently that would be "Home with God" by Neale Donald Walsch) ... laziness is a weakness of mine. I'd almost rather do nothing when given the opportunity (hence this instead of the sink full of dishes right now). I need to make the time in order to grow or I'll be stagnant! Aaaaahh! Oh well. It's all happening in time as it should, slowly but surely I'm chugging along, but I really look forward to having it even more together in the future!
My (kinda sorta) Psychic Past
I'm thinking about my past, looking back at the different signs along the way that led me in this direction of Psychic/Intuitive Development. Unlike a lot of other psychics, I didn't have any sort of traumatic event happen to me as a young child that closed my third eye. No spirits or ghosts haunted me in my bedroom at night, adults didn't tell me that I was seeing things. I really have no recollection of anything like that occurring to me as a young child. I think if anything I had more fear about anything spiritual or supernatural. I was told 3am was the hour of the beast, so I did my best not to look at the clock if I awoke in the middle of the night. Someone told me that if the rocking chair was moving the devil was in it or had been in it. After seeing "Rosemary's Baby" I was terrified (what age I was I have no clue, I saw it again when I was like 19 or 20 and cried -- like an old stored up memory came to surface) and after seeing "Agnes of God" or some other movie where there was stigmata I was convinced I'd get them when I was older because I knew I was close to God.
As a child and still as an adult, I often experience deja vu. Just insignificant little moments where I remember my surroundings exactly as they appeared in a dream. One that stands out strong in my memory was a dream I had told my mother when I was like 10 or so. For some reason I mentioned the tiny details of this dream to her, and then a few weeks or so later it happened. She was with me in this deja vu moment and she remembered my dream and validated that for me. If I hadn't said so out loud to her when I retold the dream to her I could have easily talked myself out of it, but she definitely remembered it and that was wild!
In High School I got into Astrology and Numerology. My Dad worried about me getting interested in these topics, but I saw no harm in it. I figured even if it were all made up and wrong, at least it was challenging me to get introspective and figure out who I was. At that same time I was also fascinated by dream interpretation and handwriting analysis as well as ghosts and hauntings. Obviously I've had a long term relationship with being fascinated with things of the "occult". I actually don't like that word because it sounds dark and scary! And New Age to me just sounds wrong; it carries a flighty flaky kind of connotation and it's not new at all! All this stuff has been around for nearly forever! However the word "psychic" no longer bothers me... obviously, since I'm using it pretty freely these days. It used to carry that spooky, dark weight to it; but now I see it more simply without any heavy scariness attached to it!
Back in college I was given a box of Tarot cards from a friend for my birthday. I was a little scared at first since my Dad had always told me that they are tools of the devil (wonder where the "scary psychic" feelings came from?? ;) ). I got over that concern and began playing with them. I quickly learned that I was REALLY good at them! There was one card in particular that I connected with and I could pick her out of the deck at random, first try. It spooked me out a bit, though and some nights I wouldn't sleep with them in my bedroom! Nowadays I play with "Angel Cards". They are fun and less spooky than Tarot cards, although I don't fear the Tarot anymore. I just need to practice with them some more & get familiar with again them since it's been a while.
As far as Medium stuff goes, I have always felt very sure about the afterlife and our connection to it. I seemed to be comfortable with all of that as far as I can remember. Two weeks after my paternal grandfather died he visited me in a dream (I had just turned 15). I remember it clearly, he kind of just smiled and nodded and we hugged. I got the gist that he was saying "goodbye for now. I'm fine!" When I was 23 I visited family in Germany for the first time. Before I left for that trip I had a dream where my uncle (deceased 10 years) and I were walking along a tire track dirt road in a grassy field. I turned to him and said "hey, you're Uncle Ron!" and that's all I really remembered.
While visiting my aunt and cousin, I mentioned this dream and quickly realized the dirt road I was on in the dream was on her property there in Germany. We cried and were just amazed. It was awesome. Another time when visiting my maternal grandmother at her house I was standing alone in front of a wall of pictures that were of she and my Grandfather (who died years before I was born and who I now believe is one of my Spirit Guides) when they were first together. All of sudden I felt a strong, overwhelming comfort and company... I knew he was beside me. It was incredible.
Even after these different experiences I honestly never did expect to be communicating directly with Spirits (known and unknown to me) as a Medium! That much was a surprise and I'm still trying to wrap my brain around it and realize that it is happening and it is real!
As a child and still as an adult, I often experience deja vu. Just insignificant little moments where I remember my surroundings exactly as they appeared in a dream. One that stands out strong in my memory was a dream I had told my mother when I was like 10 or so. For some reason I mentioned the tiny details of this dream to her, and then a few weeks or so later it happened. She was with me in this deja vu moment and she remembered my dream and validated that for me. If I hadn't said so out loud to her when I retold the dream to her I could have easily talked myself out of it, but she definitely remembered it and that was wild!
In High School I got into Astrology and Numerology. My Dad worried about me getting interested in these topics, but I saw no harm in it. I figured even if it were all made up and wrong, at least it was challenging me to get introspective and figure out who I was. At that same time I was also fascinated by dream interpretation and handwriting analysis as well as ghosts and hauntings. Obviously I've had a long term relationship with being fascinated with things of the "occult". I actually don't like that word because it sounds dark and scary! And New Age to me just sounds wrong; it carries a flighty flaky kind of connotation and it's not new at all! All this stuff has been around for nearly forever! However the word "psychic" no longer bothers me... obviously, since I'm using it pretty freely these days. It used to carry that spooky, dark weight to it; but now I see it more simply without any heavy scariness attached to it!
Back in college I was given a box of Tarot cards from a friend for my birthday. I was a little scared at first since my Dad had always told me that they are tools of the devil (wonder where the "scary psychic" feelings came from?? ;) ). I got over that concern and began playing with them. I quickly learned that I was REALLY good at them! There was one card in particular that I connected with and I could pick her out of the deck at random, first try. It spooked me out a bit, though and some nights I wouldn't sleep with them in my bedroom! Nowadays I play with "Angel Cards". They are fun and less spooky than Tarot cards, although I don't fear the Tarot anymore. I just need to practice with them some more & get familiar with again them since it's been a while.
As far as Medium stuff goes, I have always felt very sure about the afterlife and our connection to it. I seemed to be comfortable with all of that as far as I can remember. Two weeks after my paternal grandfather died he visited me in a dream (I had just turned 15). I remember it clearly, he kind of just smiled and nodded and we hugged. I got the gist that he was saying "goodbye for now. I'm fine!" When I was 23 I visited family in Germany for the first time. Before I left for that trip I had a dream where my uncle (deceased 10 years) and I were walking along a tire track dirt road in a grassy field. I turned to him and said "hey, you're Uncle Ron!" and that's all I really remembered.
While visiting my aunt and cousin, I mentioned this dream and quickly realized the dirt road I was on in the dream was on her property there in Germany. We cried and were just amazed. It was awesome. Another time when visiting my maternal grandmother at her house I was standing alone in front of a wall of pictures that were of she and my Grandfather (who died years before I was born and who I now believe is one of my Spirit Guides) when they were first together. All of sudden I felt a strong, overwhelming comfort and company... I knew he was beside me. It was incredible.
Even after these different experiences I honestly never did expect to be communicating directly with Spirits (known and unknown to me) as a Medium! That much was a surprise and I'm still trying to wrap my brain around it and realize that it is happening and it is real!